Sunny days & Starry nights ... Tuesday, October 28, 2014
and it seems, gaining the ability to take perspectives, learning how to put the self second to paramount importance, realizing that there are myriads of vicissitudes in life that de-signify your problems...are what growing up entails.
As much as those spell maturity, which brings along a lot more stability, credibility, and perhaps, more functionality, something intangible is also lost as maturity is gained. That is perhaps what sets adults and children apart.
I see myself in the transition of the two, and it is apparent how I am relinquishing the loss of a childish nature to acquire that of a matured adult. Right now, I wanna say, I don't like it, for I am moving away from
1) Carefree-ness. The ease of doing as the heart says. The ease of saying what the heart feels. And because there is much more prudence which gives birth to caution, many things are held back. Yes, we need that filter, but don't we also in the midst, block the most genuine, raw, emotions that reside in us?
What do you like to do? Ask an adult, and he or she will probably pause for a long moment. Many things have become so much of a habit, and so much of routine, that what is, deep, deep down inside, has been neglected. Adults do what is RIGHT, not what they WANT. Come on...let's break some rules here!
which brings me to the next point.
2) Loving unconditionally without expecting anything in return
我給你最後的疼愛是手放開
this kinda love. There is a reason why puppy love is the sweetest. That innocent, unconditional love, which only unscarred hearts are capable of. That gullible love that you can possess the whole person, and that you are the whole world to your lover. That is sweet. yet, sadly, not too sustainable.
There is also a reason why it is easier to make friends as a child as compared to an adult. Trust. It was easier to trust a friend and call a friend a friend. Wearing your heart on the sleeve and giving it to just anyone who comes along. Less judging. More loving. Now we evaluate, second-guess and doubt too much. The barrier we create protects ourselves, but at the same time, it keeps people out.
3)
duties, burdens, responsibilties, do u want to be another of that
ego, receiving help
& Lazy afternoons ...
8:40 AM :D
Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.
