Sunny days & Starry nights ... Thursday, March 01, 2012
it probably is time I should type in here as a conclusion and 'on hindsight...' for the turbulent time thus far. So, everything started going uphill on Friday which I spent working on my atypical essay till late. With the foreboding sense of multiple midterms coming, I spent my sat at home trying to settle down with trauma psych but ended up feeling guilty again due to my successful attempt at procrastination. That said, on sunday I swore to get started on trauma but still nothing was effectively entered into my brain in the morning and afternoon. I tried to evade the possibility of me being stupid by getting out of the house and proving that I can still be useful - at tidying up my new house. And so I did, and headed home around 10ish to properly kickstart on trauma. It was 2ish before I convinced myself that I am more or less prepared. By that i mean based on how well spent those hours were, not on how much contents were assimilated. So, on Monday I woke up half groggy so early at 7ish to start on the house-moving ritual. That day was sucky as I was tired, was facing the impending sense of stress from trauma midterm, and had to settle into the new house environment. Basically things started getting difficult on Monday. Where I also had to prepare for my atypical presentation in school in that very evening till 8ish and get home to an unfamiliar house filled with 12odd relatives and get into the mood of preparing for my english midterm the very next day. Ya monday sucked even on hindsight. So I studied till 2ish and got up around 7ish so I had ample time to travel to school. I guess my energy reserve was being depleted by the minute and my sleep debt was acumulating. Alas, I was done with english midterm. But that was not all, I had to get myself ready for the math midterm which was at 6. Although I wasn't intending to invest much in that module, I felt obliged to at least to spend my time before the test preparing for it. I think I did that out of the fear of guilt than a true intention to do well in the midterm. Well, so yes, it was already 8ish when I got home on tuesday and I had to prepare for another upcoming war the next day. My atypical presentation. Although it wasn't a stringent assessment where we were graded according to the presentation, I wasn't able to lax myself due to social motivation and obligation to my group members. Yes my group was a conscientious and 'on the ball' kind. So on Wed morn, we had what I think was the 5th face-to-face meeting for a rehearsal. For a good 1 and a half hour. It was pretty draining as I have yet to write my script and my group had pretty high expectations/standards. Swiftly 12o'clock came by and it was time to attend atypical lecture. I decided that it was time to let go abit and missed the first 15min of the lect to get nice comfort food from BK. During the lect I did not attempt to give my full conc for fear of being overly drained for my presentation just right after. But wala, the lecturer decided to end way before time, with 45 mins left before my presentation. I thought drats I should have used more brain juice during the lect if I had known there was going to be a mental break. anyway, came the tutorial did and present we did. VIOLA!!! THE END OF THE ORDEAL IS HERE!!! :D :D :D I have cleared 3 midterms and a presentation all together! The feeling of emancipation did take some time to sink in, as it always does after restricting yourself for a period. Restriction normally follows with the inability to relax and derive enjoyable, probably due to an overworked brain and the mere use to a up paced routine. whatever it is, I excitedly started on my reward plan- a dinner at ichiban and night safari!!! :) The night ended with supper too. It was a peculiar outing as I was sort of the sore thumb in my good friend's existing clique. But luckily i did not stick out as one and surprisely was able to mix with them pretty well. ( at least that's what i felt la) haha.
So, after wed's night of celebration, I gave myself the go-ahead to start on my takecareofuscaption drama!!! after so long !! But i was too tired to derive any enjoyment :( and slept around 2ish. Thur came and it was like the day to compose myself from the fast-paced days and transit into the holiday mood. Ikea i went and near-relaxed I was. Still when I got home I had to start on my to-do list of transcribing for my el proj and settle assorted outside school issues. It was 11ish already after I managed to clear up and set up my room. So I relaxed dily dallying till 2ish before i was gan xin to sleep.
hualala, a great night that was and I woke up only at 10am :) Now I finally feel fully recharged after those days of unrest. the past few nights I had trouble fully going into the sleep cycle as I had to worry for my dog who was sleepin in my room as well. Now I'm well rested and happy :)
I haven't planned much ahead from here and put a finger to when I should re-start the engine. I guess for now, it is time to put some effort in sprucing up my living environment but at the same time hold on to the reins of school work. ( i need to do that i need to do that! )
tata~! that's for 7 days of my life.
& Lazy afternoons ...
8:10 PM :D
Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.
