Sunny days & Starry nights ... Wednesday, November 17, 2010
this is so bad, bottom heavy of b minuses. i cannot stand it n becos i m finally comin in terms w it i cannot stand it. what hav i done !! half of the mods completed r bminuses. now i see, its rlly v bad. but prob e worst implication is tht, it means somethin more. i come to realise, nono, this is not easy to do. effort is not all it takes. hate it when internal locus of control fails me. thres helplessness. thres effort not equals to results. i guess im so used to havin my effort translated into results tht ive forgotten tht its possible to be let dwn. arghh. no good no good. i rlly dnt knw hw to move on frm hereeeeee. hw do i write good essays. hw do i even go abt preparin n movin twds it. if this struggle will nt brin me to profits i see no pt in the struggle. maybe i shld jus accept it? n not go against it so i wont feel so miserable. boohoo. or cld this jus be a test of resilience????? one try failed, but maybe numerous ones will bring some goodness? so maybe, if i don't get to 4.0 by the end of my quest, i can say i hav at least obtained a good education. can tht be? the blacknwhite achievement may be impt, but the quality of gettin thre is equally impt? hmmmmmm if thats so i shld continue strugglin ...
& Lazy afternoons ...
9:07 PM :D
Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.
