Sunny days & Starry nights ... Friday, October 29, 2010
many human relations. many feelings.
many let downs. many lessons taken.
humans are stil very complex, n thre rlly is no one way to fully comprehend them. despite being an undergraduate pursuing knowledge in the field of human behaviour and mind inquiry, i don't think im anywhere near to the complex human.
personality. behaviour. social pressure. the human in social . the social in human. emotions.
all these are concepts so hard to grasp.
alright, nevermind , experiences are essential in growth , n becos of them, despite having felt like havin had my feelings toyed, i learn. i did not learn enough to save me from experiencing the same thing, but enough to make me more wary.
aft typing down so much, it may be all becos of a single word, expectations.
people have not been meeting the expectations i have set for them to meet. its all in relativity. expecting more and expecting less in the same situation reap different effects. why does the same reaction of 2 person to the same question give me different reactions to the 2 answers? expectations.
so does that mean to prevent further disappointment, it is good in the very least to hold zero expectation ? maybe. but that will also been zero anticipation, and zero joy frm faith , a precipitator of expectation. becos you hav faith, u are able to expect more.
i do not wan to give a mellow end-off w 'that's life' that's the way people are. cos i do not believe thats the way thigns shld be. things are a certain way not becos they shld be like a certain way; if they are a certain way it does mean the certain way shld be accepted becos it is right in a sense. things don't hav to be like that, and thats why, i believe in change.
i can swallow the bitterness, i can stomach the negativities. they will not make me more bitter, only stronger with a heightened appetite for better things.
& Lazy afternoons ...
6:52 PM :D
Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.
