Sunny days & Starry nights ... Thursday, April 29, 2010
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i've nvr imagined it within my capacity to meet the vet alone with my dog. But today ,
the unspoken apprehension was broken. Since the conventional source of support has vehemently questioned my lack of independence, i've got no other choice but stand ,with a disguise of tough resolution, on my feet. it was a stomach of butterflies i had to carry when facing the diagnosis alone; nonetheless, i've nobody but myself.
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during the consultation, time seemed to have frozen around me , bringing things to a chilly standstill. I had to perpertually remind myself that i'm old enough for things like that. There was an escape of helplessness within , but my guts forced me to freeze my fear, and the brave front I had willed myself to put. Situations like this always strike at my achilles heel; this time, i'm braving up for it.
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we went home with the prescriptions .........
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Then, there brings a further excrutiating dilemma i have to face. Is the prescribed cure a means to an end ? or a self-brought-upon torment? Opinions are varied. However, being the sole decisoner, the onus will naturally be on me to present the final say, and bear the final weigh.
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why does life have to be so hard?
& Lazy afternoons ...
4:46 AM :D
Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.
