Sunny days & Starry nights ... Friday, February 06, 2009
Today, everything left me so exasperated that i really felt like throwing in the towel and leaving it all behind. I guess no amount of time and effort can prepare me enough for this confrontation, let alone brace myself up enough to take it head on. It was all too much, too furious, too fast .
The Perfect Perfect World
-yes, there's no such thing-
.
All my life, i've been living in this perfect perfect world. In my idyllic sphere, everything is coated with optimism and nothing is too colossal to tackle. If there is something you wish to pursue, there is a sure way to it. .
Sadly, my perfect perfect world came crashing down today. It did not start off by showing signs of stress; it fell apart right at once. The weight was so unbearable, so much more than what i was taught to shoulder. Yes, there ain't such thing as absolute perfection, let alone impeccable results. I say " I'm just disappointed." , and they say, " The only way is to have no expectations". Now i know.
The unrequited and unconditional Love
-do you even deseve it-
.
"A mighty pain to love it is,
And 'tis a pain that pain to miss;
But of all pains, the greatest pain
It is to love, but love in vain."
Showered with candies, swarmed with tender loving care; but do you even deserve it. Perhaps it was totally uncalled for to give that much. Now i can't take it back. My trust was misplaced, and now it's displaced. You will never know how much it hurts to find out the cold hard truth, that your cute innocent face is nothing more but a frightening facade. Scary it is to come face to face with this ugly side, but scarier it will be if i'm let on to live in this lie.
Sorry, but i'm getting out of here.
& Lazy afternoons ...
6:18 AM :D
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