Sunny days & Starry nights ... Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Oh dear, í feel so irresponsible now. I was so carried away just now that i didn't realize that it was all too much. Now it's too late! sigh i feel so sorry for my irresponsible chatterings , i failed to discharge my duties as a XXX and now i really find whatever i was doing disgusting. We were supposed to be discussing about serious business, and yet we were there, laughing like no body's business and taking the president for granted. God, what was i doing?! At least i should have been respectful to the authority-holder and save chats for off work time. oh dear oh dear i am such an irresponsible person! I promise that i would be on task and ensure to the very best of my ability that i fulfil my responsibilities the next time round. I need to make amendments. But sometimes, i'm confused about the role i should be playing. After all i'm sixth in terms of ranking and if i were to so called "chair"a discussion when other higher ranked peeps are around, it will seem like i'm trying to show off my abilities and not giving them respect (?). But maybe, if i listen to my conscience, it is only right that i take a lead if no one else remembers their duties. It will be justified for me to take the center stage . My greatest guilt today comes from not being able to assist the president who was obviously taking on too much , yeah, really. Even though we have 7 exco members, only 1 is holding the meeting in place. I'm really thankful that we have such a capable president who remains standing when everyone else grapples. Ah... What should i do? Well, what has happened has already happened, so i should just remind myself constantly NOT to make such a shameful mistake again and be a responsbile member from now.
that aside, i'm pretty disturbed by what my ct said today. Bio class supposedly starts at 11, but i went to class at 1110, but still, there wasnt anyone in class. then, arnd 5 mins later, my ct came. and she started, ( i was still the only one in class)
"Wyne,why are you so gan-jiong today?"
goodness me! how was i supposed to react? or how was i supposed to interpret her question? she made me feel like an oddball. So i'm wrong to go to class punctually just because the others are late? i'm supposed to drag my feet when it's obviously not the way just becos i have to be part of a larger fraternity? oh come on!!! goodness me.
anyway i've been indolent these days and i have been neglecting momo darcy. get a hold of your life wyne!
& Lazy afternoons ...
5:07 AM :D
Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.
