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Sunny days & Starry nights ... Thursday, January 17, 2008

Drats. I'm feeling real frustrated right now, with math. After spending nearly an hour with integration by parts, i've yet to have any luck. I'm not even close to solving 2 parts out of a 3 part question. Math is indeed a discouraging subject to begin with, it just makes you jaded and extinguishes all zest for doing subsequent assignments. Ah... how do i express this extreme irritance and annoyance i'm feeling right now?

and sigh. i was left there, feeling dejected and crest fallen after gp class. I was supposed to go home happy , for a dip in the pool, but something so disillusioning have to happen just an hour before school dismissal. What was that again? 22/50 for my essay. The moment i saw the score, i could literally feel my moods dipping down down down. How can i fail this essay which i've actually planned so much beforehand?! Worst still, i didn't see it coming and was still happily thinking that i will get the recognition for my hard hard efforts. e e e e e e e e , my essay is fraught with e e e e e e and disgusting language errors, as my tutor call it.

drats. i hate falling short of expectations.

I received my personality test report yesterday and scored 5/10 for emotional stability, which implies that i'm fairly reactive and emotionally changeable, which i thought, is pretty true. In badder terms, i'm pretty emotionally unstable, un-adaptive and immature. ( just to flip the right meaning ) Perhaps that could help explain why i was so impacted by the lousy gp grade; i was moodless for the whole double period.

Anyways, yet again, i have to be reminded that i'm an oppressive and agressive person. I've attained a score of 9/10 for dominance and perfectionism. and there's this statement that reads "Ms yang generally attempts to influence others by directing, persuading and challenging them to get thigns done her way. Ms yang may, at times, work rather aggressively to uncover inefficiencies on the part of others."gosh and similar interpretations follow. Basically, the whole chunk made me sound like a tyrant who is exremely difficult to work with and this, i thought again, may have a hint ,or ,every bit of truth in it. sigh....

The most uplifting fact revealed in the 12-page long report is me scoring 7/10 for three holland theme, social, artistic and enterprising. Hence, compatible career fields are namely, social service, religious acivities, counseling, public speaking and teaching. Out of the 5, i'll probably consider 3.

Alright, 'nuff said. Tomorrow is Friday. How time flies, the last friday doesn't feel 7 days away. Disappointingly, 4 outta 4 ppl i tried to ask out r all occupied. hmm . . . why do things seem so gloomy now?

and,yeah,I should stop going gaga.

& Lazy afternoons ...
3:30 AM :D

Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.