Sunny days & Starry nights ... Tuesday, December 04, 2007
I'm feeling rather contemplative now, so i shall dedicate a nice thoughtful post here. About stressHmm... now i really find studying an autistic thing. It forces you to a hemisphere of your own and unintentionally build a wall between you and the surrounding. and i loathe that. no not that i dislike studying or what, but it's the aftermath of it all that gets me annoyed. Okay just to pin point the culprit of these thoughts -- math assignment. argh merely a few minutes after i started wreckin my brains for one or half a question, i started to feel this intangible frustration building up in me. this uncontrollable, fiery, bursting sense of , erm, resentment. This is how the build-up goes. First, you meet this lil' hiccup which requires you to refer back to your notes, so you think, okay, this sum aids greatly in your revision hence you appreciate it somehow. Then, you pause at another working statement. Err... how how do you do definite integral? You know that it was taught earlier on but you just can't figure out where. Okay, you think, í'll just turn out my older notes for that one page or sentence. Here comes the breaking point- the last straw- where is that freaking answer?! Argh this is when i close the file in frustration , shut my assignment book and toss aside my pen. The conclusion? Studying makes you an impatient and hot headed thing. At that point if anybody were to speak to me, i'll snap right away, for sure. That, set me thinkin for a while, simply becos it was my first attempt aft 2 months?3 months? getting stressed over academic stuff. I just realized how much not touching math has morphed me into a more angelic self, like, ting! The hiatus after the promos has somewhat unwound all the twisted guts all due to stress and set them straight. The simplicity of days have ridden all nasty frustrating nooks and crannies in the mind and replaced them with clarity of thoughts. You feel like " i can see clearly now the clouds are gone". Yup exactly. The best thing is, you realize how easy it is to open your heart and feeeel the emotions running in you, how easy it is to smile at silly jokes rather then dismiss them with a condescending shrug. For once, you feel like a Person. Then the thoughtfulness, sweetness and all nice cuddly wonders of life come peeking in to you and set you doing wonderous stuff for those around you. Like in banphamon, days were so simple that you can sit by the lane just to watch the every motion of the chickens, pull a chair out in the open sky and admire the oh so starry night , have yourself in the room just to make friendship bands with only your friends in mind, take all the time in the world, literary, to slice the pineapples , making sure that every slice is near perfection... come on, when, does life here entitle you to simple pleasures like such? Argh i hate to think how yucky it will be once school life kicks in and glue me to those nasty workloads. I forseee being transformed into a bittergourd! Now i know how grumpiness come to be and how happiness is eclipsed! But what can i say? that's life. well. at least for a student in this practical sphere. About emotionsSerendipity. Miraculous. How blind i used to be. How inferior my taste was. The power of it all. About peopleHaha... i came to discover many once non-existant facets in life. Didn't realize so many ppl have exs until now. and oh boy, were they juicy and full of surprises! nono i'm not the "kpo" kind, but somehow these things have come to amuse me. I've seriously been living like a frog in the well for far too long. Let's let all these play on and unfold one by one. And did i mention? all of them are dramatic but oh so real! About shooting starsLet me end off with this.Wishes made on a shooting star come true! Like mine ! So glad i'm let off the burden of 2 years and presented with promising sights ahead. The wish wasn't fervent, neither was it clear cut. But somehow, it was granted a happy end. Let more stars fall down from the starry night sky and have them kept in my pocket. About my dogOh no! momo is becoming strangely greedy! He gets hungry really quick and he shits a lot, like twice the norm. It must be the science diet food he is getting. It's supposed to be low fat and calories but apparently it's makin him eat more. how amusing. Now he's just sittin next to me and staring hopefully at the bowl of grapes placed peacefully on the table. I'll have to wean him off this habit and make him lose a decent pile of weight before it takes a toil on his bones. About my sisterWhat's about her? She has returned from New Zealand! Moonier than before! whahahaha...
& Lazy afternoons ...
6:12 AM :D
Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.
