Sunny days & Starry nights ... Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Alas! I'm back.
Well, i've got pretty much on hand. Bulk of it - vents.
Sigh...i don't know why, but i am not enjoyin a single bit of my time in school. It really feels like i'm in a cage of some sort, with alien animals around. There's no one person whom i share the same frequency with. Can u imagine? yeah, nobody. Why? i shall say why.
First of all, i am not like them. I can't laugh at nothing, tease a already oh-so-poor soul and gossip like nobody's business. Trust me, i tried to blend in, made an attempt to be part of the stream so as to make thigns easier. But what comes outta it? a battered me. A me which i so don't desire. Yikes. I seriously need some solace in school. I hate it when everywhere i turn i see faces i dislike. And worst of all, i might as well be becoming one of the new found target of bully. hmph. just becos i appear to be meeker doesnt been u guys can make fun of me yeah. From now i gotta try growin my self estemm. yes thats what i am going to do.
Sigh sigh sigh... chem test of 6 chaps tmrw! I shan't talk about that.
This environment i am in now? just seem so uncondusive. insecured. Oh yeah one more thing i left out. It's the attitude of the ppl. I can't stand it when ppl have to dig out qns of the test they r going to take. Yeah, like if my test is on fri and someone else had taken it on mon,tue,wed or thurs, its only right that i go fish out some tips. And so i ask. why do u have to do that? and the ans? everybody's doign it! if i dont do it i am losing out! OH my..... what can i say? one thing for SURE, i am so not going to " hop into the bandwagon" and become one of them. I totally wash my hands off such matters and shall stop judging. yeah, stop judging.
Argghh... i neeed my good buddies !
& Lazy afternoons ...
5:22 AM :D
Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.
